Life’s Biggest Question
Somewhere around age two we humans start asking the question: “Why?” We go on asking that question throughout our entire lives. Many of us question the answers we receive and continue searching on whatever topic until we are satisfied by someones answer. Then there are those of us that are never satisfied by simply asking someone and we have to search out the answer for ourselves. Libraries are filled with answers to just about any question, the problem there is that like me, after reading about our particular topic we end up wondering where the author acquired their opinion.
I know that for parents, at some point it is hard to stifle the aged old answer of, “Because I said so”! Personally, I heard that answer a lot as a child and probably the only reason I don’t hear it today is because I’m old and people try to treat the elderly with a bit more restraint given the fact that we have a lot more life experience and deserve to be tolerated on some level!
At the age of seventeen I was asked to leave my family home and told that I could no longer claim Jesus as my Savior! Jesus did not die for my sins … he only died for the sins of others. I was too vile and disgusting. The Road To Jesus Was Closed! I didn’t get it.
For about twenty-four years after, I sought out, through learned men and women, the answer to the question why I was not deserving of the love of Jesus. What was it about my sin(s) that made me so unworthy? After all, the bible says: “This righteousness from God comes through faith in Jesus Christ to all who believe. There is no difference, for all have sinned and fall short of the glory of God, and are justified freely by his grace through the redemption that came by Christ Jesus. Romans 3:22-24 (NIV 1984) But, no matter where I looked I could not find a mainstream Christian who disagreed with the pronouncement that I was doomed! It just did not make sense to me.
My only option was to turn to God. I had tried to read the bible as a teen but all I got was a list of rules and regulations taller than the Empire State building which, at the time, was one of the tallest buildings in the country. To top that off, there was a whole lot of intolerance and killing going on in a book whose title began with the word “Holy”. Honestly, I had no choice but to read it from cover to cover. My love of scripture began in 1998 and continues to this day.
As it turns out my sin(s) are no worse than anyone else’s and the “Highway to Heaven” is one of my favorite drag strips as I fly by the seat of my pants to a banquet that awaits my arrival! Unfortunately, that wasn’t all I learned alone the way. I learned something very frightening and that is why I now sit with a keyboard in my lap. As prophesied by Jesus and reiterated by the Apostle Paul … Satan is alive and well and he and his followers are now in leadership positions within our Christian churches. May God have mercy on us.
If you will allow me, I have much to share with those who are willing. Oh, by the way … my sin was being gay. What’s yours?
